berlin, berlin;
so depressing they named it twice. nah, it werent depressing. just a little sad for the first day or two. we didnt get there til about 12, which meant we hadnt got any sleep the night before. think i slept on the plane for bout half an hour, which was nice. i loved the plane journey btw, i didnt think i would. i thought id be terrified. i even bought big earphones so people knew i was listening to music and wouldnt disturb me. but these ended up being a nuisance and just gettin in the way, im sticking to my little ones. but yea the flight/s were sweet. i seemed to get a good buzz from it which was nice. do something that scares you once a day, i wish i could afford to go on a plane everyday. duno where id go though.
but berlin was nice. when we got there we went to the jewish museum, straight to the point. and to be honest i was a bit dissapointed. we had to pay to get in, which is a bit rubbish, n then there wasnt really anything in there. just a few photographs and old singer sowing machines. if i had to open a jewish museum it wouldnt look like this. i duno what i would want. just something a bit more, painful. it all felt very pleasant walking around. there wasnt a lot that shocked me, or made me feel sad. there was one room that was just a big open black dark room with the light frm outside shining through windows above. n this woulda been nice, but people kept openin the door and coming in, so it was never fully pitch black. annoyin. anyways the next day we went to typography of terrors. now this was sad. sad enough that it actually made me cry. and in a way, this is what i wanted out of the whole experience. we get to this place, and see part of the berlin wall still standing, which werent too sad. but then there was a building absolutely covered in bullet holes, or just damage from nearby expolosions. but it was horrible. the whole thing felt wrong, very wrong. i couldnt help but picture people being lined up and shot against this wall. typography of terrors was were the gestapo and ss were based, it was their headquarters. jews were tortured here, killed. its still something i dont even like talking about. i think itll play a big part in my life seeing this. i can only guess that its something you have to experience for yourself.
the next day berlin started lookin a lot more rich. the areas id walked around hadnt looked too posh, and this was another reason which gave that depressed feeling. but we went to an art gallery, which only had classical art in. its not really my thing. it seems only old people like it now. i was wondering if in 100 years there'll be no classical art in the galleries, itll all just be chopped in half cows and unmade beds. i hope not. there was a few rembrandts and a few carravagio's, so these were nice to see. after that we were free to do what we want so we pottered about. the metro system worked very well, although there was these stupid men down there tryna sell you tickets for 1 euro. they stay there all day, i duno how they make a living.
the last day a woman shouted 'are you english?' to me an lauren. so we turned around, thinking that finally we were about to be useful in berlin, n then she just shoves this postcard in my hands. n the first line i read was 'im from bosnia and i have no money...' n i just thought, bluddy hell. cause then i had to stand there n read the rest of the postcard, knowing that she just wanted to money, and wondering how i was going to get out of this one. anyways i only have like 80cents in my pocket, i got lucky. but then lauren gave her like 3 euros n i was like :O and then! as we said our goodbyes, she friggin smiled at me with gold teeth! gold bluddy teeth! about 4 of them. i couldnt believe it. i well and truly got done. by probably the smartest tramp in berlin.
Bills, Brighton;
shot of bill's, in brighton, a nice place! brightons answer to the egg i recon. but the egg does nicer food i recon. the eggs one of the best things about liverpool, definately in the top 5, should go there while im back.
schmap;
sweet, my picture got chose for schmap, which is only an online map thing, but its still good to have my name on a website somewhere, well done flickr!
http://www.schmap.com/liverpool/toppicks_attractions/#r=none&mapview=Map&tab=Places&p=125996&topleft=53.40554,-2.99713&bottomright=53.40201,-2.99411&i=125996_5.jpg
http://www.schmap.com/?m=iphone#uid=liverpool&sid=toppicks_attractions&p=125996&i=125996_5
museum of liverpool life link!
My Room (Need To Tidy)
hey all, its been a long time, i think my last post was in october, which is awful when you think about it. nothing major has happened in my life. uni is going alright. just alright. its not amazing, but its not awful. im just looking forward to second year. having my own space, and doing some painting, i havnt picked up a paint brush since i've been here.
above is what ive been doing the past few weeks. just taking pictures, wandering round, and taking pictures. and to be honest, i love doing that. the best days ive had since getting to uni have been when i've got up and just done my own thing all day. anyways i learnt how to process images, using a HDR (high dynamic range) its pretty fun, and an effective approach to photography, so ive just been havin a go at that. and i decided a way to make me post on this thing more, is it i post my flickr uploads to it, so ill be doing that from time to time.
its christmas anyways, well, its the 13th of december, which means i go to see stereophonics in 3 days :) n then i travel back home to liverpool on the 18th. im really lookin forward to both things. but i just wish i was going back home to a nicer city other than liverpool. i love christmas though, i love sitting around with my family, and eating nuts and drinking beer and watching all the soaps. i think the soaps are the best thing.
some people go on holiday for christmas. i was speaking to a girl from uni who's going to brazil over christmas. i've never done that, n i dunno if i would. i think its nice to be at home during christmas. thats sorta the whole point of it isnt it? maybe im just small town :)
anyways, here's my first picture upload, it'd be great it you could give me some feedback. x
windsor castle;
the news is rubbish today. nothing good happening. i have the bbc site as my homepage, and i like going on and seeing whats going on in the world today, but there's nothing good today. just stuff about the stock market, which doesnt really interest me. it should do, cause i know it will effect me, but i dont understand it all. maybe i should learn. i do know that the stock market collapsed in america in 1929 i think. learnt that in some lecture the other day. i remember it now, but will i remember that in like 20 years time? its like french, i knew loads when i was at school, but i only know a few words now.
i think if your going to learn a language, you should visit the country for a few months, and then your forced to speak it, so you'll get better. even thought i hardly knew any french, when i went to paris, i started to remember all these words and sentences, so by the end of the week, i was able to ask for a pint of beer please, and then say thank you. simple stuff i know, but the man behind the bar was very impressed and said tres bien (very good) i think i tipped him.
i started to learn german a few weeks ago, but like everything else, i lost my interest a little, and havnt learnt any new words in the past month or so. i hate the way im like that. i have a short attention span sometimes, or is it a long one? cause im writing this blog now, and there's nothing else i want to do. i think thats cause im a bit bored though. there's nothing to do in uni. but with long term things, like paintings for example, i dont think a painting should take you more than a week. im not really into photorealism, so i like to paint really fast and messy, but sometimes i still slow down and end up spending ages on one part.
im off to windsor tonight to stay with my auntie and uncle, and ofcorse little dave the dog. it used to be called curtis but my uncle changed his name to dave. ive heard that dogs dont really know what your saying, its just the tone of your voice that they recognise, but curtis is different to dave, so he must have been confused for a bit. he's one of those dogs that humps everything. i think dogs are more horny because they dont wear pants. if every human walked around naked, there'd be more sex probably. just a guess.
one camera one tripod;
i cant explain the title for this blog. it just came into my head. i think its amazing how the mind works sometimes. like all these thoughts we have in our little head. but some people speak their thoughts.. constantly. i thought my mum was bad but then i met another person who done it none stop. i dont see the need to talk sometimes. i can quite happily sit there in silence with someone, and not feel uncomfortable. i think it was on pulp fiction, were the guy says 'thats when you know you've found someone special, when the pair of you can just sit there and shut the fuck up for a few seconds, and not feel uncomfortable' this was one of my favourite parts of the film, as well as the bit were he shoots that guy in the car. think his names marvin.
i like how the mind makes connections aswell. associations. when i typed marvin, my brain said 'starvin marvin' which is a character off a south park episode. i think it could go on for ever. i could play the word association game with myself for days. i think im quite good at that game, but sometimes people dont know what i mean by my associations. cause they really make sense to me, but other people are just like what?
im sitting in my studio space. just me and one other guy called tom, nice chap. i'm doing some thing tomorrow or friday were im gonna see how long i can sit in a 1m sqaure cardboard box for. its for my project. im looking forward to it cause its gonna be a big test to see how long i can last. if i can, id like to last 9 til 5. but we'll see. im not gonna eat or take music in or my phone. just me, the box, and a black marker pen so i can draw on the inside of the box. i dont want people to think im weird, or like tryna be proper different by doing somethin like this. i just like experimenting. and it will be good cause i can say to people in a pub 'whats the longest youve ever sat in a box for?' n then when they say i dunno, i can tell them how long i lasted.
the willow tree;
well, well, well; hello. its been a while. ive been in winchester 2 weeks and one day now, and its still going nicely :) ive had such a good day today. didnt get up til about half 12, an then me n rob went to take pictures for my project around winchester. we tried to find a quicker way back to our halls but we had no luck. but the sun was shining, the ducks were out, the mothers were with their kids in the playground, it was all just really nice.
we stopped off in a pub on the way back called 'the willow tree.' it was so nice and peaceful in there. we were gona get food but it was like a tennar for a meal, so we just got a drink. but the beer garden went like all the way down to a point in the grass, and you were sat between two streams, which were full off ducks. n it was nice cause rob phoned his mate, n i just sat there and took in everything around me. i watched a little bird tweet for ages, and i was tryna listen for a reply cause it seemed to be shouting for its mate, but i couldnt hear one. n then far in the distance i noticed a kestral or something just hovering about.
i watched these two ducks for a while aswell, and it was amazing. like its amazing to think that ducks fall in love and probably stay with each other all the time until they die. animals are so alike to humans. i hate people who mistreat animals. even nature. kids that rip up flowers. well parents that allow their kids to pick up flowers. really pisses me off. everythings alive. even books. i remember someone told me that, and ive believed it since.
ive been living off rubbish food really, but its gettin healthier. i keep just having jacket potatoes, and we discovered that our special oven microwaves actually work. so alot of pizza's been goin down. i havn't really been out into town that much. just been having nice nights in. few beers, maybe a film. i watched a film the other night with rob called TARNATION. if you havnt seen it, watch it now, its amazing, and its still on my head.
this is long, i promise ill keep this blog up to date;
didn't even get to one;
but im here, and its sweet. got here yesterday. unpacked an that, said goodbye to my parents, which when better then i expected really. i hate saying goodbyes to people. my sister cried when i said goodbye to her in my house, and she nearly got me going, but i held it back. but it was ok with my parents cause there was just so much stuff to do. so once theyd gone, i came back to my room, and began to unpack. and now, i can safely say, my room is proper sweet. its like my front room at home, just everything i need in one small space, even got a window with a nice view and the occasional rabbit grazing in the grass.
just been out then like, home already though. i was in one of those moods were you just cant/dont wanna get drunk. im always in those moods. and a girl ive been speaking to was a bit drunk, and didnt feel to good, so me n her and another girl walked back here n just went to bed like. i quite like being in my room. i dont really think ill get lonely in here, i have too much stuff to entertain me.
i have my first day at uni tomorrow, so im excited about that. happy that i didnt really stay out late tonight cause of that reason aswell. didnt wanna feel like crap on my first day of uni. anyways, so far so good. it still all feels like a holiday. like it feels as if in a week ill be back at home or something, but no no, im here. it'll sink in one day.
everton 0 - 2 liverpool......... sweet ;)
