windsor castle;

the news is rubbish today. nothing good happening. i have the bbc site as my homepage, and i like going on and seeing whats going on in the world today, but there's nothing good today. just stuff about the stock market, which doesnt really interest me. it should do, cause i know it will effect me, but i dont understand it all. maybe i should learn. i do know that the stock market collapsed in america in 1929 i think. learnt that in some lecture the other day. i remember it now, but will i remember that in like 20 years time? its like french, i knew loads when i was at school, but i only know a few words now.

i think if your going to learn a language, you should visit the country for a few months, and then your forced to speak it, so you'll get better. even thought i hardly knew any french, when i went to paris, i started to remember all these words and sentences, so by the end of the week, i was able to ask for a pint of beer please, and then say thank you. simple stuff i know, but the man behind the bar was very impressed and said tres bien (very good) i think i tipped him.

i started to learn german a few weeks ago, but like everything else, i lost my interest a little, and havnt learnt any new words in the past month or so. i hate the way im like that. i have a short attention span sometimes, or is it a long one? cause im writing this blog now, and there's nothing else i want to do. i think thats cause im a bit bored though. there's nothing to do in uni. but with long term things, like paintings for example, i dont think a painting should take you more than a week. im not really into photorealism, so i like to paint really fast and messy, but sometimes i still slow down and end up spending ages on one part.

im off to windsor tonight to stay with my auntie and uncle, and ofcorse little dave the dog. it used to be called curtis but my uncle changed his name to dave. ive heard that dogs dont really know what your saying, its just the tone of your voice that they recognise, but curtis is different to dave, so he must have been confused for a bit. he's one of those dogs that humps everything. i think dogs are more horny because they dont wear pants. if every human walked around naked, there'd be more sex probably. just a guess.

one camera one tripod;

i cant explain the title for this blog. it just came into my head. i think its amazing how the mind works sometimes. like all these thoughts we have in our little head. but some people speak their thoughts.. constantly. i thought my mum was bad but then i met another person who done it none stop. i dont see the need to talk sometimes. i can quite happily sit there in silence with someone, and not feel uncomfortable. i think it was on pulp fiction, were the guy says 'thats when you know you've found someone special, when the pair of you can just sit there and shut the fuck up for a few seconds, and not feel uncomfortable' this was one of my favourite parts of the film, as well as the bit were he shoots that guy in the car. think his names marvin.

i like how the mind makes connections aswell. associations. when i typed marvin, my brain said 'starvin marvin' which is a character off a south park episode. i think it could go on for ever. i could play the word association game with myself for days. i think im quite good at that game, but sometimes people dont know what i mean by my associations. cause they really make sense to me, but other people are just like what?

im sitting in my studio space. just me and one other guy called tom, nice chap. i'm doing some thing tomorrow or friday were im gonna see how long i can sit in a 1m sqaure cardboard box for. its for my project. im looking forward to it cause its gonna be a big test to see how long i can last. if i can, id like to last 9 til 5. but we'll see. im not gonna eat or take music in or my phone. just me, the box, and a black marker pen so i can draw on the inside of the box. i dont want people to think im weird, or like tryna be proper different by doing somethin like this. i just like experimenting. and it will be good cause i can say to people in a pub 'whats the longest youve ever sat in a box for?' n then when they say i dunno, i can tell them how long i lasted.

the willow tree;

well, well, well; hello. its been a while. ive been in winchester 2 weeks and one day now, and its still going nicely :) ive had such a good day today. didnt get up til about half 12, an then me n rob went to take pictures for my project around winchester. we tried to find a quicker way back to our halls but we had no luck. but the sun was shining, the ducks were out, the mothers were with their kids in the playground, it was all just really nice.

we stopped off in a pub on the way back called 'the willow tree.' it was so nice and peaceful in there. we were gona get food but it was like a tennar for a meal, so we just got a drink. but the beer garden went like all the way down to a point in the grass, and you were sat between two streams, which were full off ducks. n it was nice cause rob phoned his mate, n i just sat there and took in everything around me. i watched a little bird tweet for ages, and i was tryna listen for a reply cause it seemed to be shouting for its mate, but i couldnt hear one. n then far in the distance i noticed a kestral or something just hovering about.

i watched these two ducks for a while aswell, and it was amazing. like its amazing to think that ducks fall in love and probably stay with each other all the time until they die. animals are so alike to humans. i hate people who mistreat animals. even nature. kids that rip up flowers. well parents that allow their kids to pick up flowers. really pisses me off. everythings alive. even books. i remember someone told me that, and ive believed it since.

ive been living off rubbish food really, but its gettin healthier. i keep just having jacket potatoes, and we discovered that our special oven microwaves actually work. so alot of pizza's been goin down. i havn't really been out into town that much. just been having nice nights in. few beers, maybe a film. i watched a film the other night with rob called TARNATION. if you havnt seen it, watch it now, its amazing, and its still on my head.

this is long, i promise ill keep this blog up to date;